the ONE that FLEW away ♥

Yes, theGirlwhoGotINKED has soar high to the Arabian Deserts of Qatar to explore life and first handedly experience what the gulf has to offer.

Its been a long while since I last typed away my thoughts and since am celebrating my 5th month here in Doha --  the long writing hiatus has come to an end.

That photo was taken last 17th of January when I was traversing the skies to 5 timezones away from all that was familiar, all that was secure, all that I'm comfortable with.

And now, with a thousand miles and a flight of 10 hours away.. Charisma is familiarized in living her life with such deeply rooted faith in the Big Man above, has learned that experience is truly the best teacher, that challenges are there not to break us but to push us in discovering that there is more to us than what we have been convinced to believe..that at the end of it, just maybe with all the little sparks of hope left -- that love is still exist.

So yes, since am breaking free from this  of writer's block in a different country which has been been home to me for the last 5months.. Since am surrounded by newly found friends and some who never really left my side.. -- Am going to end this blog refresh's first entry with what I have learned and realized about Love ♥

***

You know it's real love ,when it's more than just a feeling, more than a happy fleeting source of glee.. Because feelings change, they wither as the seasons change.

You know it's real love, when you are committed to make it right, right not just in front of everyone, but more importantly in the eyes of God.

You know it's really love, when you are not afraid to let it go..when and if it becomes required. You are not afraid to let it go because you are trusting in the better good, that if it's right it will become perfect in it's due time. That if it's His will; no man, woman or earthly plan can stand against His destined plan.


Much Love♥
CT2013


 

First 2012 Thought Bubble ♥

Since I didn't get you for Christmas.. Can I have you for New Year instead..that way I can keep you for at least a whole year, haha! ♥

bytheladymargaret@flickr

Verses: Makata Sa Sariling Wika

**1st Tagalog Entry Everrr..*

Nagsimula akong maglathala ng aking mga saloobin, hinanakit, pangarap at kaisipan noong ako ay asa highschool. Hindi ko inakalang ito ay magpapatuloy hanggang sa kasalukuyan kung kailan ako ay tapos na sa pag-aaral at ilang taon na rin namang nagtratrabaho at may sarili nang pamumuhay. Higit sa lahat, hindi ko inakalang ako ay makakasulat ng ilang berso sa wikang tagalog, bersong masaya ang tema at walang pinaghuhugutang hinanakit at lumbay.


Ang susunod na mga talata ay dulot ng isang pagsintang puno nang katatawanan, mga bagay na hindi pinlano at tunay na hindi inaasana. Ang titulo nito ay:

EPEKTO MO 0512

Pilit mang ipikit ang mga matang nagmimithi,

Kahit sa dilim, ngiti mo ay hindi mawaglit..

Mag-kunwari mang ikay hindi naiisip,

Hangang sa panaginip, ay ikaw ang ninanais..

Nakakapanibago, sa totoo lang, natatakot na ako.. Kahit sa hinagap ay hindi ko ikalang ganito ang iyong epekto..

Sa isang malayong ibayo ng mga mag-sinta at mapaglaro.. 

Sa isang lugar ng pangako, kung saan ang buhangin at alon ay parating nagtatagpo.. 

Inakala kong doon na ang huling yugto, yun pala ang kasunod noon ay tatlong tuldok..

Nakakapanibago, sa totoo lang, natatakot na ako.. Hindi ko inakalang, hindi ka lang puro loko.. 

Sa likod nga mga tawa at mga pagbibiro, mayroon palang paglambing na mukha namang totoo..

Hindi ako umaasa sa madaliang pag-ibig at sa pangako na handog ang kalawakan at mundo. 

Pero akoy magpapasalamat kung balang araw ay magkatoto -- na matawag kitang akin, at ako ay sa iyo..

Dumating man ang araw na iyon, o manatiling lamang epekto ng bisyo.. 

Akoy buong pusong makukuntento.. 

Kuntento dahil, lubusang napasaya moko, natuto akong mabuhay sa ngayon at di masyadong maging seryoso..

Maliban don, kalakip ng mga tawa at mga emoticon sa mensahe mo, dulot mo ang inspirasyon upang makasulat ako ng masaya at nakakapagpangiting tagalog na berso..

Random Thought:: He Can Turn your Mourning into Dancing

It is amazing how God can change all your fears to faith, all your doubts to security, all your worries to assurance -- and a sick, hurting, unsecured, tear-filled start of 2011 to a blessed, surprisingly awesome, blissful, filled of laughter, love and grace 2011's end <3 



*8 more days to go before my year-ender-photo-blog piece, God you are amazing. I feel so blessed :)

Word of the Week: SHIH TZU :)

More than the cute, adorable, little dog which they are popularly known for -- there are a number of awesome facts and information about this dog breed:


Did you know#01: The name translates as Lion Dog, so named because the dog was bred to resemble "the lion as depicted in traditional oriental art,"^[1] such as the Chinese guardian lions. The Shih Tzu is also often known as the "Xi Shi quan" (西施犬), based on the name of Xi Shi, regarded as one of the most beautiful woman of ancient China.


Did you know#02: DNA analysis placed the ancestors of today's Shih Tzu breed in the group of "ancient" breeds indicating "close genetic relationship to wolves".


Did you know#03:  The Shih Tzu comes in a range of colors that include various shades of gold, white and brown. Other colors include black mask gold, black and white, solid black, solid liver, liver and white, brindle and white and silver and white.^[12] Though not as common there are also solid blue Shih
Tzu.


From: wikipedia.com 

My Baby Girl Sushi on top of a MINI COOPER.
Tiendesitas Dog Shopping Night with Roy and Ian

Am of to Animal House to visit my Baby Girl. She was confined over the weekend due to those evil wormies in her tummy. Good thing there are no bacterias in the heart and its just in the tummy. Thanks to Dr. Jojo of Animal House, we had her dewormed, hooked on IV and on ID diet so she'll recover super fast. Hoping to get her home tomorrow. Get well love, see you in a bit.




ANIMAL HOUSE MAKATI
108 Jupiter Street Bel-Air, Makati
eMail: anihouse@skyinet.net
Phone: (02) 8963704
Fax: (02) 8969523

Random Thought: Single is fab and not a drag :)

Going through Facebook and other social networking sites made me realize that most of my batch mates are either with kids, married or engaged. As for me, I got a NewTattoo last week, Digitally Permed my Hair yesterday and is getting a Baby Girl Shihtzu before the month ends. While am perfectly happy for my dear friends - and I still believe in the Blissful Promise of Ever Afters, I can now truthfully say (without grudge and bitterness) that I am happy to be single at that moment- don't worry, in HIS time, am sure Perfect Love will come around<3. But for now, I'll continue to live the life I love and make the most of this single and fab life that I have been blessed with.

PS: Am excited for the EU Trip I am having with my bestfriend next year. 

All moolah funds & paid vacation leaves are for Europe -- Salute! :)

My Baby Girl : Sushi ♥

Cannot wait to bring this baby home:)

Are you ready to read those verses out loud?

OPEN SPOKEN
03 December 2011
Yadu, The Collective
Makati - 9PM


I was thrilled to see this video uploaded on Open Spoken's page this afternoon:
 "Takip Silim" by Charisma Torres  <<-- *ClickClick*

Heartbeat ♥♥

*mindPOD Now Playing*

 

(You're stealing my heart away..) I don't know where were going, I don't care who we are.. Feels like we are flowing.. High above the stars..

I saw you talking on the phone, I know that you are not alone
But you steal my heart away, Yeah you steal my heart away


You’re acting like you’re on your own, But I saw you standing with a girl
Stop tryn’ to steal my heart away, Stop tryn’ to steal my heart away


I don’t know where we going I don’t know who we are


I can feel your heartbeat x2, He said to me
I can feel your heartbeat, Running through me
Feel your heartbeat, She said
I can feel your heartbeat, She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat, She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat, She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat, Running through me
Heartbeat, Feel your heartbeat


Maybe it’s the way you move, You got me dreaming like a fool
That I can steal your heart away, I can steal your heart away


No matter what it is you think, I’m not the kind of girl you think
And give my heart away -- Stop tryin’ steal my heart away


I don’t know where we going, I don’t know who we are


I can feel your heartbeat, He said to me
I can feel your heartbeat, He said to me
I can feel your heartbeat, Running through me
Heartbeat
Feel your heartbeat, She said
I can feel your heartbeat, She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat, She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat, Running through me


Stop stealing my heart away x3
You’re stealing my heart away


I don’t know where we going, I don’t know who we are
Feels like we are flowing, High above the stars

The stars, the stars, the stars


I can feel your heartbeat, He said to me
I can feel your heartbeat, He said to me
I can feel your heartbeat, Running through me
I can feel your heartbeat, She said
I can feel your heartbeat, She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat, She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat, Running through me
Heartbeat, Feel your heartbeat


Stop stealing my heart away (Talk to me girl)
Stop stealing my heart away (Give it to me boy)
Stop stealing my heart away (Say it to me girl)
You’re stealing my heart away


Stop stealing my heart away x3

Your heartbeat.

Verses: HUSH 0305

Have you ever been asked the Question: What do you miss most about being "In a Relationship" / Hate about being Single? 


I've been asked that a couple of times and my Answer has always been a consistent one: At the end of the day, no matter how extremely blissful, happy or tremendously bad my day was - I miss being able to share it with someone. Someone who'll not just listen, but understand - who'll not just sympathize, but feel. 


After all that has been said and done in this 20 something years, am honestly not in a hurry for anything. Yes, I miss it and honestly, i still desire it. But am trusting that in the Right Time, HIS Perfect One will come along. 


For the mean time, am going to infect you with this lovey-nostalgic bug that the bit me tonight. Below are some verses I've doodle during my "inlove" times. 


**
HUSH 
0305


If I can hold you in my arms
To touch your face and hold you tight
I'll kiss your fears and hold your hand 
Keeping the faith to be beside -
Overcome and just love.


Hush, just listen...
Hush, hold my hand...
Hush, feel my touch...
Hush, close your eyes...


We don't need to stress it
We don''t even have to talk about it
The heart feels more than what you hear
And time I know will prove it clear


Lovers lost with faith regained.
I'd give everything just to hear you say...
That you'll do anything for this love to stay.


Hush, lets do this
Hush, I'll hold you still
Yes, you can come over
Tonight, we'll kiss the night away.


**

CLEAR INTENTIONS

"We must be cautious though, for we could be serving with the wrong motives. We must check our hearts. If we are doing things for selfish ambition, we will inevitably get burned out. We should serve without self-interest. We must serve like Jesus..."

-From CCF Weekly Bulletin, Chronicle.

Charisma's BUCKET List

Admit it or not, all of us have this written/unwritten list of things that we want to do and places we want to explore before our lifetime ends. Well, based from experience (more from the work side of life) things wont get accomplished easily until its laid out, planned or at the very least written down.

In short, what gets measured - gets done. So here is the list of things, places, people, activities, accomplishments ++ adventures and craziness that I wish to mark as done before my lifeline hits game over.

In no particular order, and will be updated whenever I have insomnia attacks and lalala/blah lull moments.


1. Backpack around Europe
2. Drink  and Drink Beer at Delirium Cafe in Brussels
3. Get Scuba Diving Certified ►© January 2009
4. See a Shark Live Underwater ►© June 2009
5. Do Sky Diving
6. Climb a Mountain
7. Swim with the Whale Sharks (Butandings) ►© April 2010
8. See at least one (hopefully, up to three) out of the 7 Wonders of the World ►© Puerto Princesa Underground River, counts right?? ►© April 2009
9. Learn how to Drag Race
10. Fire a Gun
11. Get a Tattoo ►© First Tatt on April 2011 // November 2011
12. See the Eiffel Tower
13. See the Angkor What
14. Out of the Country Travel Trip Alone ►© Singapura Birthday Trip last December 2010
15. Try Bungee Jumping
16. Out of the Philippines Scuba Dive►© Kota Kinabalu, Malaysia last January 2010 
17. Do a Hongkong-Venetian Macao Weekend
18. Ride a Cruise (Bahamas, Asian or Mediterranean)
19. Scuba Dive at Tubbataha Reef
20. Visit the Chocolate Museum in Brussels
21. Poetry Reading ►© Personally written piece (Takip Silim) at Open Spoken last September 2010
22. Get Master Scuba Diver Certified
23. Try Whitewater Rafting
24. Marvel over the Sunset at Santorini, Greece
25. Try Wake boarding 
26. Try Skim boarding 
27. Try Surfing
28. Visit the Holy Land (Israel) with Mi Familia
29. Do a Drive to Baguio (I would like to do the zigzag drive)
30. Celebrate NEW YEAR'S EVE in NEW YORK - Time Square Baby!




Open Spoken: Verses

Ive been scribbling since high school. I have a manage to collect a rummage of hilariously silly "high-school-you-thought-youreinlove" writings up to the most recent heart-out-burst.

I find solace in writing. Its personal; its an expression of your heart, a reflection of your thoughts, a channel of your soul. For years, I have hid behind the lines of my poetry. Cast under the shadow of my own words and locked in my broken sonnets and open-ended-verses.

I have long been hiding until i found a place here in Manila where you can read your poetry out loud, and i have mastered the gut to read my writings out.

Thanks to Dominic and to Open Spoken, my first Tagalog piece, written when i was in the blues last year, finally went out:

***

Takip Silim

Sabi nila tanga daw ako pagdating sa puso.

Sabi ko naman, mahal ko lang talaga.

Sabi nila bakit hindi ko naman isipan ang sarili ko.

Ang sagot ko naman, iba lang talaga yung sitwasyon.

Sabi nila hindi naman siya ganyan dati ah.

Tumahimik lang ako, ngumiti nang parang wala lang, sabay bulong sa hangin, na sana panandalian lang siyang ganon..

Pero ngayong gabi,

matapos ang ilang takip silim ng pag-unawa,

pag-tanggap, pag-paparaya

 at di pagpansin sa pansariling nararamdaman.

May kakaibang saloobin akong bigla nalang lumabas,

mga kaisipang hindi ko mapigilang ilathala, ilang tanong na hindi ko maaring hindi mabigkas ---

Saan ba natatapos ang purong pagmamahal na kadalasan ay sinasaway na ang mga habilin at alituntanan na tinala ng isipan?

Hanggang kailan kaba mag-aantay kung minsan ay sinabi nangang hindi nya alam kung kailan maibabalik ang dati namang magkatugmang buhay?

Tama pabang patuloy na panghawakan ang pangako ng pag-ibig

-- kung tila pag-ibig nalamang ang naiwan.

Pag-ibig nalamang ang naiwan

at mukhang ang mga kaakibat nitong kailangan para itoy magtagal ay inalon na ng mga sandaling kayo'y magkawalay,

nang mga takot na hindi mabitawan,

ng mga saloobing pikit matang kinalimutan.

OPEN SPOKEN happens once a month at Yadu, The Collective. Malugay St. Makati City. Visit their pagehttp://www.facebook.com/OpenSpoken 

TAKIP SILIM was written last 2010 and was finally spoken last September 2011