Charisma's Crazy Beautiful 2011

I have always wanted to do a year-ender-photo-blog, but I though was a writer since college and a photografreak from the longest time imaginable - I was never really able to to do and publish one. Well, today, when I am actually doing one, I have come to realize that 2011 is the best year to start with.. True that reflection happens every end of each year, and as we turn in the calendar we always say that the year we are about to bid good bye to is by far the best year -- however, for Charisma Torres; 2011 is truly one heck of a Memorable, Perpetually Pinned to my Life's Timeline, Crazy Beautiful Year. 

To call it a roller-coaster is an understatement, its more a Yin-Yang-ish kind of year; I had the worst first half and an awesome year's end; truly a manifestation of the Big Man Up Above's Promise of Love, Favor, Restoration and that He can turn one's mourning into dancing. 

My dad having a heart problem, a deeply broken heart, and my best friend leaving for SG to take on a permanent job sprayed my January 2011 with dark shades of grey. It was then followed by scares and an accident that almost cut my life's journey to an untimely ending.

But just when I thought that my year is directed towards a dooms-day fail, it did a sudden somersault which geared me to face the sky over troubled waters, where a perfectly painted rainbow was there waiting to greet me.

My career went heading the direction I've wanted and signed conformes from clients when shooing in, my family was graciously blessed with our property dealings, participated in the MVP Olympics and Ms. PLDT & won 1st runner up, my dad was completely healed, and my heart has been freed from hate and hurting; it is once again ready to truly love and freely live. I was able to write again and read my verses out loud. Also, I have been blessed with the opportunity to relax and travel, meet and gain a few real friends, re-unite old friendships and just spend time with the family + our latest added member, Sushi; my 2 month old baby ShiTzu. Oh, and I have two tattoos; on my back inked in black is the Hebrew of Thy Will Be Done On Earth As It Is In Heaven and  inked in white, place on my right arm to remind me that truly, one must Live the Life you Love ♥

Here are my 2011 highlights -- to all those who have faithfully stayed come sunny days or rock bottom; you guys are the best and am truly blessed to have you in my life, to the new friendships; with no doubt you guys have brought color and bliss to my year -- here is to the year that was and to the year that God is about to bless us with - cheers! :)



Mi Familia + Sushi = Perfect Love ♥



Scuba Diving Trips + Awesomes



My PLDT Family



MVP Olympics, Best Muse 1st Runner Up

 

The Girl Who Got INKED
Black: Thy Will Be Done On Earth As It Is In Heaven
White: live the life you love <3



Good Old Friends + Brand New Additions

  

Boracay Hits x2 in 2011



 SPONTANEITY at its BEST
Impromptu SINGAPORE Flights and TAGAYTAY Roadtrips

 

My Most Love Girls Since High School



OPEN SPOKEN: Was able to read out load the verses I have written
First Shot at it is with TAKIP SILIM



My Baby Girl Sushi

Charisma Ending her 2011 with Lots of  Love for the People she has been Blessed to Have in her Life, with More Passion for Music, Poetry, Arts and Tattoo ++ Loads of Faith and Hope ♥



Are you ready to read those verses out loud?

OPEN SPOKEN
03 December 2011
Yadu, The Collective
Makati - 9PM


I was thrilled to see this video uploaded on Open Spoken's page this afternoon:
 "Takip Silim" by Charisma Torres  <<-- *ClickClick*

Open Spoken: Verses

Ive been scribbling since high school. I have a manage to collect a rummage of hilariously silly "high-school-you-thought-youreinlove" writings up to the most recent heart-out-burst.

I find solace in writing. Its personal; its an expression of your heart, a reflection of your thoughts, a channel of your soul. For years, I have hid behind the lines of my poetry. Cast under the shadow of my own words and locked in my broken sonnets and open-ended-verses.

I have long been hiding until i found a place here in Manila where you can read your poetry out loud, and i have mastered the gut to read my writings out.

Thanks to Dominic and to Open Spoken, my first Tagalog piece, written when i was in the blues last year, finally went out:

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Takip Silim

Sabi nila tanga daw ako pagdating sa puso.

Sabi ko naman, mahal ko lang talaga.

Sabi nila bakit hindi ko naman isipan ang sarili ko.

Ang sagot ko naman, iba lang talaga yung sitwasyon.

Sabi nila hindi naman siya ganyan dati ah.

Tumahimik lang ako, ngumiti nang parang wala lang, sabay bulong sa hangin, na sana panandalian lang siyang ganon..

Pero ngayong gabi,

matapos ang ilang takip silim ng pag-unawa,

pag-tanggap, pag-paparaya

 at di pagpansin sa pansariling nararamdaman.

May kakaibang saloobin akong bigla nalang lumabas,

mga kaisipang hindi ko mapigilang ilathala, ilang tanong na hindi ko maaring hindi mabigkas ---

Saan ba natatapos ang purong pagmamahal na kadalasan ay sinasaway na ang mga habilin at alituntanan na tinala ng isipan?

Hanggang kailan kaba mag-aantay kung minsan ay sinabi nangang hindi nya alam kung kailan maibabalik ang dati namang magkatugmang buhay?

Tama pabang patuloy na panghawakan ang pangako ng pag-ibig

-- kung tila pag-ibig nalamang ang naiwan.

Pag-ibig nalamang ang naiwan

at mukhang ang mga kaakibat nitong kailangan para itoy magtagal ay inalon na ng mga sandaling kayo'y magkawalay,

nang mga takot na hindi mabitawan,

ng mga saloobing pikit matang kinalimutan.

OPEN SPOKEN happens once a month at Yadu, The Collective. Malugay St. Makati City. Visit their pagehttp://www.facebook.com/OpenSpoken 

TAKIP SILIM was written last 2010 and was finally spoken last September 2011