Freedom, Love ! ♥

Thanks to Facebook, I've again confirmed what I have long known & seen what I have then hid from. Truly, it Doesn't Hurt Anymore :) I just waited for the Perfect Time to put myself to the test & I've never been happier from the results that I got back. 2011 indeed was a great one, it was a rollercoaster of shizz and glitz and on this Christmas Eve I've never been more certain that this year will end with a Big Big Happy Blast. Freedom, Love!♥♥

Random Thought: Single is fab and not a drag :)

Going through Facebook and other social networking sites made me realize that most of my batch mates are either with kids, married or engaged. As for me, I got a NewTattoo last week, Digitally Permed my Hair yesterday and is getting a Baby Girl Shihtzu before the month ends. While am perfectly happy for my dear friends - and I still believe in the Blissful Promise of Ever Afters, I can now truthfully say (without grudge and bitterness) that I am happy to be single at that moment- don't worry, in HIS time, am sure Perfect Love will come around<3. But for now, I'll continue to live the life I love and make the most of this single and fab life that I have been blessed with.

PS: Am excited for the EU Trip I am having with my bestfriend next year. 

All moolah funds & paid vacation leaves are for Europe -- Salute! :)

Are you ready to read those verses out loud?

OPEN SPOKEN
03 December 2011
Yadu, The Collective
Makati - 9PM


I was thrilled to see this video uploaded on Open Spoken's page this afternoon:
 "Takip Silim" by Charisma Torres  <<-- *ClickClick*

Heartbeat ♥♥

*mindPOD Now Playing*

 

(You're stealing my heart away..) I don't know where were going, I don't care who we are.. Feels like we are flowing.. High above the stars..

I saw you talking on the phone, I know that you are not alone
But you steal my heart away, Yeah you steal my heart away


You’re acting like you’re on your own, But I saw you standing with a girl
Stop tryn’ to steal my heart away, Stop tryn’ to steal my heart away


I don’t know where we going I don’t know who we are


I can feel your heartbeat x2, He said to me
I can feel your heartbeat, Running through me
Feel your heartbeat, She said
I can feel your heartbeat, She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat, She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat, She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat, Running through me
Heartbeat, Feel your heartbeat


Maybe it’s the way you move, You got me dreaming like a fool
That I can steal your heart away, I can steal your heart away


No matter what it is you think, I’m not the kind of girl you think
And give my heart away -- Stop tryin’ steal my heart away


I don’t know where we going, I don’t know who we are


I can feel your heartbeat, He said to me
I can feel your heartbeat, He said to me
I can feel your heartbeat, Running through me
Heartbeat
Feel your heartbeat, She said
I can feel your heartbeat, She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat, She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat, Running through me


Stop stealing my heart away x3
You’re stealing my heart away


I don’t know where we going, I don’t know who we are
Feels like we are flowing, High above the stars

The stars, the stars, the stars


I can feel your heartbeat, He said to me
I can feel your heartbeat, He said to me
I can feel your heartbeat, Running through me
I can feel your heartbeat, She said
I can feel your heartbeat, She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat, She said to me
I can feel your heartbeat, Running through me
Heartbeat, Feel your heartbeat


Stop stealing my heart away (Talk to me girl)
Stop stealing my heart away (Give it to me boy)
Stop stealing my heart away (Say it to me girl)
You’re stealing my heart away


Stop stealing my heart away x3

Your heartbeat.

Verses: HUSH 0305

Have you ever been asked the Question: What do you miss most about being "In a Relationship" / Hate about being Single? 


I've been asked that a couple of times and my Answer has always been a consistent one: At the end of the day, no matter how extremely blissful, happy or tremendously bad my day was - I miss being able to share it with someone. Someone who'll not just listen, but understand - who'll not just sympathize, but feel. 


After all that has been said and done in this 20 something years, am honestly not in a hurry for anything. Yes, I miss it and honestly, i still desire it. But am trusting that in the Right Time, HIS Perfect One will come along. 


For the mean time, am going to infect you with this lovey-nostalgic bug that the bit me tonight. Below are some verses I've doodle during my "inlove" times. 


**
HUSH 
0305


If I can hold you in my arms
To touch your face and hold you tight
I'll kiss your fears and hold your hand 
Keeping the faith to be beside -
Overcome and just love.


Hush, just listen...
Hush, hold my hand...
Hush, feel my touch...
Hush, close your eyes...


We don't need to stress it
We don''t even have to talk about it
The heart feels more than what you hear
And time I know will prove it clear


Lovers lost with faith regained.
I'd give everything just to hear you say...
That you'll do anything for this love to stay.


Hush, lets do this
Hush, I'll hold you still
Yes, you can come over
Tonight, we'll kiss the night away.


**

Dearly Departed

Amidst the hustle and bustle of the long weekend, after all the escapades, roadtrips or sweet escapes trips out of Manila -- it isn't just right to end the holiday without paying respect to our dearly departed.

We visited Daddy, my dearest Lolo from Mum's side this afternoon at Himlayan Pilipino Memorial Park, Tandang Sora. Good thing that the caretakers did their job well and Daddy's graveyard looked clean with trimmed grass and plants on the side.

Advance Happy Birthday Daddy, it has been 23 years since you left us, but your memories to Mum and Mommy and the kwentos about you will remain in me forever. Thanks for making sure that we are taking cared of  :)

Daddy Jun, Charisma, Ike, Anne, Mommy Fely and Aunty Rosie. Himlayang Pilipino, November 2011

PS. Am turning 25 on the first. I'll take extra shots for you on our upcoming birthday, that I promise :)

Open Spoken: Verses

Ive been scribbling since high school. I have a manage to collect a rummage of hilariously silly "high-school-you-thought-youreinlove" writings up to the most recent heart-out-burst.

I find solace in writing. Its personal; its an expression of your heart, a reflection of your thoughts, a channel of your soul. For years, I have hid behind the lines of my poetry. Cast under the shadow of my own words and locked in my broken sonnets and open-ended-verses.

I have long been hiding until i found a place here in Manila where you can read your poetry out loud, and i have mastered the gut to read my writings out.

Thanks to Dominic and to Open Spoken, my first Tagalog piece, written when i was in the blues last year, finally went out:

***

Takip Silim

Sabi nila tanga daw ako pagdating sa puso.

Sabi ko naman, mahal ko lang talaga.

Sabi nila bakit hindi ko naman isipan ang sarili ko.

Ang sagot ko naman, iba lang talaga yung sitwasyon.

Sabi nila hindi naman siya ganyan dati ah.

Tumahimik lang ako, ngumiti nang parang wala lang, sabay bulong sa hangin, na sana panandalian lang siyang ganon..

Pero ngayong gabi,

matapos ang ilang takip silim ng pag-unawa,

pag-tanggap, pag-paparaya

 at di pagpansin sa pansariling nararamdaman.

May kakaibang saloobin akong bigla nalang lumabas,

mga kaisipang hindi ko mapigilang ilathala, ilang tanong na hindi ko maaring hindi mabigkas ---

Saan ba natatapos ang purong pagmamahal na kadalasan ay sinasaway na ang mga habilin at alituntanan na tinala ng isipan?

Hanggang kailan kaba mag-aantay kung minsan ay sinabi nangang hindi nya alam kung kailan maibabalik ang dati namang magkatugmang buhay?

Tama pabang patuloy na panghawakan ang pangako ng pag-ibig

-- kung tila pag-ibig nalamang ang naiwan.

Pag-ibig nalamang ang naiwan

at mukhang ang mga kaakibat nitong kailangan para itoy magtagal ay inalon na ng mga sandaling kayo'y magkawalay,

nang mga takot na hindi mabitawan,

ng mga saloobing pikit matang kinalimutan.

OPEN SPOKEN happens once a month at Yadu, The Collective. Malugay St. Makati City. Visit their pagehttp://www.facebook.com/OpenSpoken 

TAKIP SILIM was written last 2010 and was finally spoken last September 2011  

She Got INKED

THY WILL BE DONE ON EARTH AS IT IS IN HEAVEN
(Matthew 6:10)

 

The 6th to 7th of April 2011 (for all the good and bad ones) will always be sketched in my memory bank and eternally inked on my skin (on my spine to be exact) -- Yes, that's the fateful day that Charisma GOT INKED.



More than the Fascination of Art and the Desire to Fully Express my Self through it, having myself INKED is a Profession of my Faith and a reminder that though we have the Free Will to live out our lives the way we opt to - the Will/Plan/Purpose of the Big Man Up There is far More Greater than what are Minds can Conceive, Much More Fuller than what our Hearts can Hope for. 

This Year Marks my Quarter Life and its truly proving to be one Heck-of-a-Roller-coaster-Ride. 2010 was a shower of Love, Bliss and Unmeritted Blessings; 2011 is when Characters are Tested, Emotions are Pruned, and Individuals are truly made better by the Changes that they Challenged to Face, Embrace and Learn from. Bring it on 2011, with Hope Regained and Faith Refueled -- am Ready for You!

  

INKED by Alex Cabaluna

Lex is a PHILTAG Member and can be contacted at (02) 4937050

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